We all edit our lives. Some chapters become suspiciously short; others bulk out with sensuous feelings, tragedy, comedy, and love. Some of us do such a good job of editing that entire chapters are elided with surgical precision.
Not long ago, I read the obituary of a formerly close friend. His biography was complete, except for the years carefully papered over or cleverly excised. He’d been one of the ringleaders in the raucous crew I lived with on the backside of Boston’s Beacon Hill. Some of the more wondrous, obscene, and whacked-out things we had done had him in the lead.
Somehow, after marriage and children, he reinvented himself. But what a reinvention. From the very left of the center to the very far right of the center on the political spectrum.
Sometime in the early eighties, I ran into him for a final get-together. He found me and the few surviving other friends from the old days to be both an embarrassment and political liability. He’d prefer if we quietly didn’t call again. We didn’t jibe with the right-wing shock jock persona he used on his radio show. He feared enemies would find us and ask for the dirt. After a while, I got up and left.
On the way out of the Harvard Gardens, I called out his old name, “Hey, Teahead! It’s been nice knowing you!” We knew him as the Teahead of the August Moon.
And no, I didn’t attend the funeral or fill in the relatives on the Teahead’s doings. He had been so much more interesting back then!
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I don’t know if this is fact or fiction, but you’ve painted a picture of a truly repulsive human- not for what he may have taken part in his but for who he chose to become. Both a liar and an instigator of injustice against humanity. Excellent write either way.
The word past is missing but I think you can figure out where it goes.
This is barely fictionalized, basically true. And I agree with you, but I’ll always be sorry for the loss of the wonderful kind and generous person I had known.
And in that knowledge I applaud you. For you can still see the man he once was. The one that you love.
It’s so strange how people can change so radically….sadly it’s not always a good idea to go to a reunion …it can really be saddening.
That said fact/ fiction it was a great read ๐๐
True. Reunions are full of surprises, not all pleasant. It’s not like going home again.